Suicide

Nobody understands me,
I'm all mixed up inside,
nobody understands me,
I have a lot to hide.
On the outside,
looking in,
I always lose,
never win.
I never smile,
always cry,
don't want to live,
need to die.
Nobody understands me,
my life is falling apart,
nobody understands me,
it's ripping out my heart.
I swear I'll pull the trigger
and put a bullet in my head,
we'd all be better off,
if I were gone and dead.
My hand is getting sweaty,
I'm tightly shutting my eyes,
I'm sick of all the nasty stares,
the loneliness, the lies.
My life is almost over,
in a few minutes I'll be gone,
nobody's gonna miss me,
nothing will be done.
The clock is ticking loudly now,
the time is almost here,
the clock is ticking fastly now,
the end is almost near.
The blood is spilling over,
the police are standing 'round,
wondering why I did it,
and where the gun was found.
My eyes are feeling heavy,
the pain is fading away,
if only someone would have known,
how I felt that day.
Nobody understands me,
now I'm burning up in hell,
if there's one thing I could tell you,
here is what I'd tell:
Think about how lucky you are,
not to be like me,
standing in a burning fire,
screaming in misery.